Samantha, I hope you don’t mind me rehashing an idea.
I envy those who can circumvent their personal censors, those who are aware of the social and moral implications of their actions but have the utmost finesse in letting those factors dictate what they do. To live life arbitrarily would be a blessing. If I could die knowing I acted in accordance to every whim I felt I needed to chase, my life would be well spent. Having others understand you seems important, but in comparison to a supreme level of honesty to yourself, the understanding of others can only come second.
"If you hate your parents, the man, or the establishment, don’t show them up by getting wasted and wrapping your car around a tree. If you really want to rebel against your parents: outearn them, outlive them, and know more than they do."